Today is August 28th, 2014. Thursday. I'll try and make this quick as I have a shit ton of studying to do.
It's been a good two weeks since I moved in to good old UNC Chapel Hill. Met my roommate. He's a nice dude. He's almost never in the room, so basically I have the room to myself for the majority of the day. I've reconnected with my suitemates from last year. My roommate last year, Jacob, has an apartment off campus and I've hung around there a few times. Had dinner with my suitemate from last year Tyler, quite a few times. But more importantly, I think I'm beginning to find my place, my clique where I feel comfortable. I didn't mention this before, but our suite as a whole last year were friends with two other suites. Several times throughout the semester our three suites would go and get dinner. We'd be those douchebag groups who'd combine like three four-person tables to fit everyone. Back then I had Lauren, so honestly I didn't think much of these people. But they were always nice to me, so I reciprocated the feeling whenever I was with them. And they knew about Lauren, so that'd be something I talked about. But more to the point, some of the guys from the other suites along with Tyler, invited me to go out to the frats with them last week. I'm not much of a party kind of guy, but I decided to tag along. I never took the opportunity to go out much last year, so why not? And though we didn't really find much, I was glad I actually had people to hang out with. I didn't need Lauren's group. They didn't invite me to anything, so why bother? Anyway I've been around this new group for a while. I have class with some of them, so I sit with them and eat at the dining hall after class. That's been nice. I've also hung around with Jacob a lot. He's probably my best friend here at UNC. As I said before, we hung around his place with his roommates. His roommates are cool too, they're the girls from one of the three suites I mentioned earlier. He's pretty lucky, I guess.
I've also tried participating in new extracurriculars too. I joined ukulele club. Met up with my friend Kat, who also plays ukulele. I kind of liked her a few months after me and Lauren broke up, but nothing really happened so I guess we're just okay friends. Waiting for an e-mail regarding a research opportunity as well, so that'll be some interesting stuff. I also plan on volunteering at the same school as last semester. I tutored kids for an after school program. It helped take my mind off the break up with Lauren.
But I know what you all want to know. Yes, I did see Lauren. Only once. It was the night me, Tyler, and the guys from the other suite went out to the frat houses. We caught the bus going to the frats. This bus was located outside our dorm last year, Hinton James. This dorm is the biggest dorm for first-year students on campus, so most of the people at the bus stop were first-years. Lauren happens to live in Hinton James, but I wasn't anticipating actually seeing her there. But she was there. She wasn't going on the bus though. She left her dorm, but walked somewhere else. The direction she was going was weird, I honestly don't really know what she was doing, but she walked passed us. I called out her name, she turned, said hey, and walked away. That was it. Anticlimactic, I know. But this exchange made me mad. In retrospect I had know real reason to be angry, but I was. It was the cheerful way she said "hey." After blocking me and wanting absolutely nothing to do with me, she wanted to give me a cheerful hello? It was a very stupid reason to be angry, but I was. It showed that I hadn't fully moved on. I can willfully admit that. I texted my friend Alex, from high school. She goes to ECU, a university an hour away from UNC. She was, and is still my closest female friend. I had a small crush on her, but honestly I knew we weren't ever going to date. But anyway, she told me to forget about her. She helped me remember to focus on the people who really care about you, not on people who no longer do. I saw Lauren's friends/my old group that night too. They knew I was upset. I haven't seen any of them since that night.
It doesn't really matter now, though. I'm in a new group of friends. I also met my new roommate's friend, who have been nothing but nice to me. I'm invited to go to a concert with them soon, so that'll be fun. I have friends, I'm actually doing shit. I'm not the boy from last year who skyped his girlfriend on Saturday nights for 4 hours. I'm not tied down in a relationship anymore. I'm free. And I'm happy. I hope things continue this way. It's been a very long time since I've felt this comfortable.
P.S. As for any girls, or "prospects" as Tyler likes to say, there are a few. There's a girl who lives in the dorm next to mine. I've seen her a few times. Unfortunately I haven't had a chance to talk to her. She's friends with some friends of mine as well, so there was mutual friendship I could incorporate in a conversation. However the only problem is that I have no way of actually starting conversation without making me seem creepy. So unless I can think of something, that's not happening.
Also my roommate now has a friend who's cute as well. I talked to her briefly. The only reason I noticed her honestly was because she said she lived on the 8th floor of Hinton James, the same floor as Lauren. I quickly asked if she knew her, and she told me she has talked to her a few times.
So yeah there's two prospects. The second girl isn't really so much a prospect, but the first one is. We'll see how all of that goes. Thanks for reading!
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