Too busy. Things will pick up, I guarantee it

November 17th, 2014. Monday.

I have a pretty tough week this week. Or I guess a really tough Wednesday. I have an exam tomorrow night, but I have an organic chemistry exam, an analytical chemistry test and a spanish presentation all on Wednesday. I will be doing absolutely nothing after Wednesday, I'll go ahead and tell you.

I studied, but I always feel like I could have done more. But I'm not going to sit and regret that. Only thing I can do now is be confident and hope to do well.

I performed at a mini concert for the ukulele group. It was fun actually, but short. The spring concert will be more hype though!

I haven't talked to third girl much. I haven't thought about her much given all the studying that I've been doing. I'm also just really tired and I honestly don't feel like putting any effort into reaching out and asking her out, or any other girl really right now. I know I have to make an effort at some point if I really want to be in a relationship. Life isn't that easy and a relationship isn't a one way street. I guess in a way I'm not particularly ready to be in a relationship either. Until I reach that point where I want to actually go out and make an effort to find a girl I care about, I guess I'm just going with the flow for a while.

Sorry for the lack of interesting content lately. Exams are coming up and I just haven't had the time. I promise next week I'll give some more interesting stories about my life. It's just now all I do is go to class and study. But after that's done I'm sure things will pick up.

in preparation for a difficult week

November 11, 2014. Tuesday. My mom's birthday!

To be completely honest with you, nothing interesting has been going on lately. It's been fairly quiet.
I've talked to the third girl whenever I can, but I've been trying my hardest to focus on school. I get distracted way too easily.

This week is mostly just a preparation week. Next week I have a presentation and 2 chemistry exams. Cramming everything in that week would suck so I'm covering all my bases this week so I'll be okay next week.

Yeah I really don't have any more updates. Things have been slow, but we'll see if shit picks up soon. The quiet usually doesn't last long anyway.

Quick change

So I've been getting a little more views on my blog. So I've decided to make anonymous some of the names that I use in my blogs, particularly the girls that I like. I'm keeping those private. The most recent girl, as stated in one of the blogs, will be referred to as "third girl." Sorry if this bothers any of the ~30 viewers that I get hahahaha. Thanks for reading I guess.

Focus and a lot of maybe's

November 1st. Saturday. Been a pretty interesting week.

Halloween last night was great. I met up with some friends that I haven't talked to in a while and we just perused Franklin Street. There were some kickass costumes around. I was just an old man, put together last minute.

I didn't talk to third girl much this week. I wanted to see if she'd like to go with me to this party tonight, but don't think that's going to happen.

Saw Lauren yesterday after lunch. I was in a foul mood so I had to avoid her or I might have said something rude, or something like that.

The week in general has just been pretty awful. Mediocre test grades, general tired-ness, lack of progress with third girl. I've been asking myself a lot of "why" questions lately. Why aren't things working in my favor? Shit like that.

I still really like her, but I'm doubting myself. I'm doubting the notion of dating at this point in time. It just seems like her and her general group of friends aren't in the dating scene at the moment. Her and her friends went out on Thursday night. Maybe they just want to have fun and be free. Could I be wasting my time? Maybe I should be doing the same. Maybe by not caring I'll feel better mentally.

Someone once told me that with the path I'm going through with school, I'm going to have to make a lot of sacrifices. I've been out of focus. I need to get back in. I need to stop worrying about what other people think, whether third girl likes me or not, whether Lauren still affects me emotionally or not. I need to do better in school. I'm going to focus everything on that, and the other things will happen on their own accord, not mine.

I'm not letting everything bring me down. I've been pretty negative all week, and I'm tired of it. We all have our ups and downs, and I'm ready to ride the train up for the next while. I'll see all of you there.