So I'm a college senior now. I start the school year next week and I've been thinking about moving forward. I think I'm going to focus more on myself than I have before. I lost weight and started going to the gym 2 years ago to impress girls. I focused so much on trying to look better with the belief that it will somehow attract girls to me. I still have a little bit more weight to go, but I'm going to get rid of it for my sake, not for anyone else's.
Ironically, I thought about this because of a girl I liked. She posts a lot on Facebook and a general theme of hers is that she is an independent woman who wants to focus on her future and let the man come after or perhaps in conjunction. She's not willing to commit if it won't last, or if it'll distract her from her goals. That's the mindset I'm trying to live.
How realistic is that though? Maybe I've been watching to much television, but I thought love is so important that it trumps everything else, that you would make sacrifices for the person that you love. But am I ready for that? I have had many crushes during the past few years in college, but not one has given me the feeling to sacrifice my needs, to pursue more.
So until then I'll live for me. I'll complete this year and move forward.
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